Being a mother is literally the best thing that has ever happened to me. Sweet Elaine Lam always used to tell me "You were made to be a mommy". I never believed her of course, finding it easier to hide away in low self worth. BUT, now I believe her, oh yes I do. Being a mommy is what fills my soul with joy. I still have a lot of growing and learning to do, but in this moment I rejoice in the fact that I created a human being with the person I love, and that I get to nurture, love and raise that sweet little boy. I'm loving all of the parts of this journey....well actually most of the journey...I did find a pile of p**p on my floor yesterday. I thought an animal had broken into our house, but no it was just my sweet diaper-less boy. Guess we can't air out as much anymore... ;). But seriously, my heart has never felt more full and my soul more alive. I am happy.